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Just a manic 17-year old photographer(of sorts) from the Philippines running a photoblog(also of sorts) to pass the time.

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

On reaching for your dreams.

I've never been much of a formal planner, by this I mean writing down plans and organizing my thoughts. I never liked writing on paper, doodling on paper or doing anything on paper because I believe I have no artistic skills at all. My handwriting is chicken feed and I am about as artistic as a snail...wait no, correction, snails can make pretty things with their slime. Maybe it would be better to say that my artistic skills rival that of a dead fly.

Where am I going with this? Well I never wrote down things (aside from notes because dammit if teachers let you type down notes in class) because I never liked my handwriting and I'm a person who likes to find excuses so I don't write things on my laptop either because 1 I don't have a tablet and 2, it takes too much brain capacity which I really lack in. I am a sloth. I am the queen of the chimpanzees, I look down upon you all and say "WHERE IS MY PEA SOUP!?!"

All this has lead to my brattiness...but wait! I am getting off topic!

Anyways, lately I've been trying to write down lists of things I need to do (homework wise) and I have found that it has really been helpful because I always forget what I need to do. I used to be such a smart-ass with 4538980 kabajillion megateramimosaterabytes of memory in my head. Sadly, I think all the spongebob squarepants episodes and kenan and kel late night reruns have taken over my memory because every time I'm about to take a test my mind either goes "Ohhhh here it goes!" or "I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready." So lately i've been resorting to taking out my pad...thingy..!..? And just writting down my homework for the day in it. Now since I have a 4 hour free period on tuesdays and thursdays, I spend most of my time in the library doing all the homework I need to do. So far this has proved successful and I now have 2 perfect Math tests and an approved English research paer topic to show for it.

So I figure, why not take a step further? I've always wanted to be more organized. I'm the type of person who'se really obsessive compulsive once I get into things. I'm not a perfectionist per se, I just like finishing things once I start them. My room will be a mess 350 days in a year but once in a while, my room is really clean for atleast a day because I just wake up and decide to clean my room.

This is the part where I say please excuse all my babbling because I have no will-power and focus to get straight to the point.

The point: Realizing all this, I'm gonna make a little step to try and improve myself. I've been wallowing in self-pity lately because I see others move further with their dreams while I'm stuck nowhere. I'm now making a conscious decision to actually write down my goals and do them. Tomorrow I'll be commenting back on Flickr because I've missed commenting a lot (though not really, because I don't like being repetitive and always saying "Lovely photo!") and I miss seeing all the lovely photos of my contacts. I'm doing this among other things because even if I don't fulfill my dreams, no one can ever go up to me and say I never tried because so help me God I will push that bitch off a cliff.

I think this is a good start. I have new photoshoots coming soon, though not right now since my cousin has borrowed my 50mm which I am now nothing without because I've been so dependent on it's amazing light-capturing abilities as a result of it's low aperture. And I'm planning to restore an old project and start a new one with some friends. All of them will most probably be up next year. It's a slow start but atleast I'm getting somewhere.

I'm ending this blog now because for the life of me I don't wanna bore you all with my babbles. I really can't control myself, I'm sorry.

Here, have a pie.

Oops...I ate it. Sorry.

xoxo, gossip girl.



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    and nice Blog