Well this is a late Christmas Post, there's not even a lot of Christmassy photos in here because I spent my Christmas camera-less because I was too lazy to bring my camera around. All photographers (or photographer-wannabes in my case) know that the price of being a photographer is that you're never in any of the family photos because you're always taking them. Well enough is enough! I'm tired of not being tagged in these Holiday facebook photos! Screw you all! I'm part of the family too!
-breath in, breathe out-
So here's a photodump for you all. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Let's start of from the ground and work our way up shall we?
I haven't posted in this thing for so loooonnnng. I'm sorry! I've mostly been posting things here and there in my Tumblr because It's easier to post little bits of blogs and thoughts there than on here because I'd flood the pages here if I did. I like placing more thorough blogs here anyways. So little things = Tumblr, bigger things = here.
I am happy. I am blessed. I am blissful. I am golden.
Basically, if my feelings right now were a song...It would be this song.
Ren and Stimpy, how I miss it.
I am happy because I got my 50mm lens back right in time for a photo shoot. I got to use Narcissa(my 50mm) to take behind-the-scenes photos for the photoshoot. This makes me happy because UP is such a nice place to take photos in, I swear it's like everytime I go there, I find somewhere new to shoot. This time I was introduced to a park and this wonderful pathway near the College of Music.
For those of you who follow my Facebook fanpage, you might have already seen some photos from this shoot like...
Post-processing photos after the shoot
Mirabai shooting Erica
This shoot was different because for once I wasn't a photographer for it but a model...which sucks because I really don't know how to model. Hard as I try, I always end up looking like a very very sad cabbage patch kid. I was only a model in the first place because I'm going to be one of the artists to be showcased in a small exhibit for the thesis of a student.
My photography has been crap lately. I really miss my 50mm but all is well because my cousin will soon return it to me and triumphant angels will sing songs of praise once I get my beloved Narcissa back.
Yes the name of my 50mm is Narcissa.
I realize that I haven't done a photoshoot in a while. So here's one I did last wednesday because it was "Pretend to be a time traveler" day and some of my blockmates dressed up.
I've never been much of a formal planner, by this I mean writing down plans and organizing my thoughts. I never liked writing on paper, doodling on paper or doing anything on paper because I believe I have no artistic skills at all. My handwriting is chicken feed and I am about as artistic as a snail...wait no, correction, snails can make pretty things with their slime. Maybe it would be better to say that my artistic skills rival that of a dead fly.
Where am I going with this? Well I never wrote down things (aside from notes because dammit if teachers let you type down notes in class) because I never liked my handwriting and I'm a person who likes to find excuses so I don't write things on my laptop either because 1 I don't have a tablet and 2, it takes too much brain capacity which I really lack in. I am a sloth. I am the queen of the chimpanzees, I look down upon you all and say "WHERE IS MY PEA SOUP!?!"
All this has lead to my brattiness...but wait! I am getting off topic!
Anyways, lately I've been trying to write down lists of things I need to do (homework wise) and I have found that it has really been helpful because I always forget what I need to do. I used to be such a smart-ass with 4538980 kabajillion megateramimosaterabytes of memory in my head. Sadly, I think all the spongebob squarepants episodes and kenan and kel late night reruns have taken over my memory because every time I'm about to take a test my mind either goes "Ohhhh here it goes!" or "I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready." So lately i've been resorting to taking out my handy-dandy...post-it pad...thingy..!..? And just writting down my homework for the day in it. Now since I have a 4 hour free period on tuesdays and thursdays, I spend most of my time in the library doing all the homework I need to do. So far this has proved successful and I now have 2 perfect Math tests and an approved English research paer topic to show for it.
So I figure, why not take a step further? I've always wanted to be more organized. I'm the type of person who'se really obsessive compulsive once I get into things. I'm not a perfectionist per se, I just like finishing things once I start them. My room will be a mess 350 days in a year but once in a while, my room is really clean for atleast a day because I just wake up and decide to clean my room.
This is the part where I say please excuse all my babbling because I have no will-power and focus to get straight to the point.
The point: Realizing all this, I'm gonna make a little step to try and improve myself. I've been wallowing in self-pity lately because I see others move further with their dreams while I'm stuck nowhere. I'm now making a conscious decision to actually write down my goals and do them. Tomorrow I'll be commenting back on Flickr because I've missed commenting a lot (though not really, because I don't like being repetitive and always saying "Lovely photo!") and I miss seeing all the lovely photos of my contacts. I'm doing this among other things because even if I don't fulfill my dreams, no one can ever go up to me and say I never tried because so help me God I will push that bitch off a cliff.
I think this is a good start. I have new photoshoots coming soon, though not right now since my cousin has borrowed my 50mm which I am now nothing without because I've been so dependent on it's amazing light-capturing abilities as a result of it's low aperture. And I'm planning to restore an old project and start a new one with some friends. All of them will most probably be up next year. It's a slow start but atleast I'm getting somewhere.
I'm ending this blog now because for the life of me I don't wanna bore you all with my babbles. I really can't control myself, I'm sorry.