Well this is a late Christmas Post, there's not even a lot of Christmassy photos in here because I spent my Christmas camera-less because I was too lazy to bring my camera around. All photographers (or photographer-wannabes in my case) know that the price of being a photographer is that you're never in any of the family photos because you're always taking them. Well enough is enough! I'm tired of not being tagged in these Holiday facebook photos! Screw you all! I'm part of the family too!
-breath in, breathe out-
So here's a photodump for you all. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Let's start of from the ground and work our way up shall we?
I haven't posted in this thing for so loooonnnng. I'm sorry! I've mostly been posting things here and there in my Tumblr because It's easier to post little bits of blogs and thoughts there than on here because I'd flood the pages here if I did. I like placing more thorough blogs here anyways. So little things = Tumblr, bigger things = here.
I am happy. I am blessed. I am blissful. I am golden.
Basically, if my feelings right now were a song...It would be this song.
Ren and Stimpy, how I miss it.
I am happy because I got my 50mm lens back right in time for a photo shoot. I got to use Narcissa(my 50mm) to take behind-the-scenes photos for the photoshoot. This makes me happy because UP is such a nice place to take photos in, I swear it's like everytime I go there, I find somewhere new to shoot. This time I was introduced to a park and this wonderful pathway near the College of Music.
For those of you who follow my Facebook fanpage, you might have already seen some photos from this shoot like...
Post-processing photos after the shoot
Mirabai shooting Erica
This shoot was different because for once I wasn't a photographer for it but a model...which sucks because I really don't know how to model. Hard as I try, I always end up looking like a very very sad cabbage patch kid. I was only a model in the first place because I'm going to be one of the artists to be showcased in a small exhibit for the thesis of a student.
My photography has been crap lately. I really miss my 50mm but all is well because my cousin will soon return it to me and triumphant angels will sing songs of praise once I get my beloved Narcissa back.
Yes the name of my 50mm is Narcissa.
I realize that I haven't done a photoshoot in a while. So here's one I did last wednesday because it was "Pretend to be a time traveler" day and some of my blockmates dressed up.
I've never been much of a formal planner, by this I mean writing down plans and organizing my thoughts. I never liked writing on paper, doodling on paper or doing anything on paper because I believe I have no artistic skills at all. My handwriting is chicken feed and I am about as artistic as a snail...wait no, correction, snails can make pretty things with their slime. Maybe it would be better to say that my artistic skills rival that of a dead fly.
Where am I going with this? Well I never wrote down things (aside from notes because dammit if teachers let you type down notes in class) because I never liked my handwriting and I'm a person who likes to find excuses so I don't write things on my laptop either because 1 I don't have a tablet and 2, it takes too much brain capacity which I really lack in. I am a sloth. I am the queen of the chimpanzees, I look down upon you all and say "WHERE IS MY PEA SOUP!?!"
All this has lead to my brattiness...but wait! I am getting off topic!
Anyways, lately I've been trying to write down lists of things I need to do (homework wise) and I have found that it has really been helpful because I always forget what I need to do. I used to be such a smart-ass with 4538980 kabajillion megateramimosaterabytes of memory in my head. Sadly, I think all the spongebob squarepants episodes and kenan and kel late night reruns have taken over my memory because every time I'm about to take a test my mind either goes "Ohhhh here it goes!" or "I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready." So lately i've been resorting to taking out my handy-dandy...post-it pad...thingy..!..? And just writting down my homework for the day in it. Now since I have a 4 hour free period on tuesdays and thursdays, I spend most of my time in the library doing all the homework I need to do. So far this has proved successful and I now have 2 perfect Math tests and an approved English research paer topic to show for it.
So I figure, why not take a step further? I've always wanted to be more organized. I'm the type of person who'se really obsessive compulsive once I get into things. I'm not a perfectionist per se, I just like finishing things once I start them. My room will be a mess 350 days in a year but once in a while, my room is really clean for atleast a day because I just wake up and decide to clean my room.
This is the part where I say please excuse all my babbling because I have no will-power and focus to get straight to the point.
The point: Realizing all this, I'm gonna make a little step to try and improve myself. I've been wallowing in self-pity lately because I see others move further with their dreams while I'm stuck nowhere. I'm now making a conscious decision to actually write down my goals and do them. Tomorrow I'll be commenting back on Flickr because I've missed commenting a lot (though not really, because I don't like being repetitive and always saying "Lovely photo!") and I miss seeing all the lovely photos of my contacts. I'm doing this among other things because even if I don't fulfill my dreams, no one can ever go up to me and say I never tried because so help me God I will push that bitch off a cliff.
I think this is a good start. I have new photoshoots coming soon, though not right now since my cousin has borrowed my 50mm which I am now nothing without because I've been so dependent on it's amazing light-capturing abilities as a result of it's low aperture. And I'm planning to restore an old project and start a new one with some friends. All of them will most probably be up next year. It's a slow start but atleast I'm getting somewhere.
I'm ending this blog now because for the life of me I don't wanna bore you all with my babbles. I really can't control myself, I'm sorry.
Excuse my disappearance, school has started and I'm trying to start early with my schoolwork. For the past 2 weeks I've been studying my butt off for things we haven't even taken up yet in class. So far it's earned me one perfect math quiz which is something because last semester I almost failed math.
Now, since I don't have the time to go online everyday for things not related to schoolwork, e-mails, facebook and twitter...my 365 has been on the backburner, but what's new with that. I do still take photos everyday. I've just decided to post them all in a group instead of one at a time. No one ever said you had to post one a day...or maybe someone did. This is just me rebelling (fight the power!)
My latest 10 photos come as a series I thought of. I've always loved bokehs and taking photos in the night in the middle of traffic. So I combined them both. This has been my journey for the past 10 days.
It has been rain and shine, day and night. In a place so busy where people barely have the time to stop and just take a deep breath. Where vendors are hard at work and sleepy priviledged students(like me) count the seconds till the final ticking of the clock. Where street children walk along overpasses, hoping to receive alms. Where bus drivers wait lazily in the vans, all the while exposed to the sun and it's rays while their riders are in the comfort of their classrooms. Where poverty and privilege meets. No one sees this, not even me. All I can see are blurred images. Lights dancing around the streets.
I had an awesome shoot on Wednesday with the people from my May UP shoot. I had the most amazing time with them and it was all a mess but it was a fun mess.
I can't put the photos up yet but here are some outtakes. These are all SOOC(straight out of the camera) by the way, I just edited their sizes, added a watermark and compiled them all so if they look plain to you(as compared to my other photos), I apologise. I still quite like them though.
My net has been down the past few days and my life's just been a tornado of crazyness as it always has been. This sembreak has attacked me with lots of ideas and random acts (like jumping in a pool of rain water, leaves and disease with all my clothes on...not the best idea.) Sadly it's coming to an end soon.
I was supposed to have another photoshoot yesterday with Lexie and some friends (from the UP May 2010 photoshoot!!) but sadly it wasn't pushed through. Because of this I spent the whole day moping around the house asking myself "WHAT IS LIFE." Because this week has just been terrible, 2 photoshoots cancelled and bored out of my mind.
Luckily my SOS on twitter was answered and I embarked on a little photoshoot with my friends/neighbors.
Because I've been busy during the day and tired at night, my photography has suffered. I lost track of my 365 and I rarely took photos. So the night before last night (wait, what?) while I couldn't sleep, I decided to clear yesterday for a good old fashioned shoot. I haven't done one in ages and it felt good to take those kinds of shot again. The only pain was not having my 18-55mm because my 50mm f1.8 lens don't autofocus on my D40x.
Today was International Suit Up Day, I thought it wasn't really a big deal till I got to school and BAM 5 guys in suits walking in a line walked past me. I had to stop myself from laughing or I'd look like a maniac. So I just looked down at the ground.
I thought that was when my experience with Suit Up day would end but by the end of the day, I counted over 30 guys wearing suits, not including the girls I saw. One of them just happened to be my blockmate.
Ok, so I lied. I'm back today because I couldn't keep away. I just wanted to blog about this...heeeee.
So I was talking to some high school friends last night on twitter and it lead to the discussion of some old photos I took for a project the student council in my school had.
And because I was bored, I decided to procrastinate studying for Math, and preparing for a big event for today, I looked up the photos and my jaw dropped. They really sucked. I mean..what the hell was I thinking. The composition was wrong, the background was distracting and I just hated myself for taking those photos.
So I tried to salvage them a bit and re-edited them. -see how they're all extremely long in width but short in height because the background was so ugly-
I'm sort of happy with how the new ones turned out...sort of.
This is one of the Kada* photoshoots I did to help fund the some school council projects.
This past week has been hell week for me, and next week will be hell week as well. 2 weeks of hell week.
The only thing that's minutely making me happy is my cousin's birthday on Saturday. She's turning 10 on 10/10/10. That's just mind boggling for me. I wish my birthday was that epic. So my other cousin, her sister, asked me to take photos of the party. Gah, I cannot wait to whip Ansel out and just forget everything and get lost in the moment.
Also, I have a small gathering with my friends -wink wink- so that should be fun.
Here's to surviving.
P.s. My facebook page now has 142 likes as I type this. I can't believe my shameless facebook-suggest-to-friends-plan worked! Gah. It's probably a small number for other people I know who have over 500 likes, but it's a start.
One of my favorite photoshoots :)
I got around to re-editing some of the photos today....because I was procrastinating studying for Math..and writing my English paper. (huhu, this is gonna kill me in a while.)
Saturday was an awesome day beyond words because of two things.
Wordcamp Philippines 2010
YFC-Z Infinity Camp
I can say it was a pretty good follow up to the day before yesterday...now if only my brother would get his lazy ass into the car and drive me to the bonfire. IT WOULD BE THE PERFECT ENDING TO THE WEEKEND.
In amidst of all this school werk(yes, I said werk.) I've been finding it harder and harder to find time to take photos. I guess that's why I like celltography so much because it's easy to just whip my phone out and take photos.
I didn't get to take a lot of photos today though. And I didn't have time tonight because I've been busy writing a Literary Analysis paper. It doesn't help that my friends keep on bugging me as well...
I'm getting tired of school. I can feel the weight of hell week pushing down on me already, and it's still 2 weeks away! I wish time would fast forward to sembreak so I'd have a month long vacation. Too bad life doesn't work that way.
I've never liked taking photos with my cellphone because up until recently, I had a crappy phone with a crappy camera. I only ever used it to take photos of fun times with my friends and family, moments where I didn't have my camera with me.
Today was the beginning of experimentation for me. I managed to take some shots with my phone while we were filming things for my Filipino class. All of these are straight out of the camera/cellphone(SOOC) with the addition of my watermark.
today we talked about how monday's felt dead, about how monday was the most useless day the of the week. we both had early morning classes and we woke up to each other's voices in our alarms screaming "wake up fool!"
today we talked about how weird your hands were, so full of callouses and yet silky smooth like a baby's butt full of johnson's baby lotion with some talcum powder on the side
today we talked about how unfair it was you slept in class and got A's while i furiously wrote notes and got B's.
today we talked about how one day this will all be gone but we'll be happy because atleast we got to experience some of it.
today we talked about how ironic it was that i loved vanilla while you were allergic to it. we talked about how i love seafood but hate to swim, how you love skydiving but hate heights. and then i proceeded to laugh because you're so fucking tall.
It's been two years since I've gotten Ansel (my Nikon D40x) and in the time I've spent with him, life was amazing. I dove into a world I never knew existed before. I began to look at things in a whole new way and I've never looked back.
But since I am a greedy, greedy girl. I've started to hunger for a new camera, for the longest time my heart was set on getting the Nikon D90 and I've been waiting for a new camera to come out so that the price of the D90 would drop. Now that the D7000 has come out -side note: oh god, why do i feel like i'm talking about cameras being gay...- it looks like the D90 would be mine.
But as I said before, I am a greedy, greedy girl and I've started to cheat on the D90 with the D7000. Now I don't know which one to save up for...
People told me that I wouldn't be sleeping much in college.
Well, it's now my 4th month in college and I have to tell those people how wrong they were. Back in high school I slept at wee early hours of the morning but eversince I entered Ateneo I've been sleeping at around 10 - 11 pm depending on what time my classes are the next day.
College is really hard though, I really feel bad for some of my blockmates and classmates who lack rest :(
I just took all these shots one day when I noticed everyone seemed to be sleeping.